Mish, I've got to agree with OT here. You seem to react with incredible anxiety whenever anything even remotely reminds you of what was and what you don't want again. How do you get past that in order to give this a chance? I think that's the question right now. If you're continually looking for reasons to end it then you probably should. It's just too emotionally draining if you can't let go. I don't say that to be mean or judgmental because I would find it so incredibly difficult to be in your situation. So how are you going to let go enough to give this a chance? Any ideas? I'm tapped out...not that I had an idea to begin with... Btw, I'm on my fourth week of St. John's Wort and don't feel any difference at all except in my pocket book. How long did it take for you to feel any type of difference? Hell, I'd even settle for some kind of hallucination just to get my money's worth
