I agree with Grit that you are begining to realize what we are telling you. From my experience you are still holding on. You are still consumed with thoughts of H and OP. You are still trying the "think" thru this. Tay - I'm sorry you can't. You can't think thru this..You can though GO thru it.
This is hard Tay...very hard. I know. Sometime the pain is just overwhelming. I get it.
I think writing down a list of phrases that you can refer to when you are feeling down is a good thing. In addition, to this list you need to write down when and why you feel the way that you do. In short, what triggers this. Once you know what it is you can do a better job of dealing with this.
I have seen you refer to God in several of your post..Now is the time to hold on to your faith. Now is the time to let go and let God. Now is the time to get closer to Him..to let Him shower you with His love. Now is the time for you to find a small moment of peace.
Tay - I believe with all of my heart that you can do this. You can. I am praying for you.
Hang tough you will make it.
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
