New here, not sure where to start

[Truegritter]

I'm feeling down, like quitting.

I can only tell you this is the hardest thing I ever did in my life

And

The most amazing thing...

If you want to quit you will not just be quiting on your M.

You will be quitting on YOU.

THAT would be a shame. You are here and you have made it through 35 pages of posting. A tough 35 pages.

And I see you starting to hear. To listen and understand.

You have this in you. Keep at it.

Things like "you can do this" "love from a distance" "be his light" "show compassion" "remember that he is really confused right now" -- stuff like that.

These are just words to you right now and the ideas might be a little fuzzy.

Even the word detach might be fuzzy.

They will take shape for you as you move through this and will become real.

And be part of you.

This is the journey.