Just found out she already filed

[ImprovedRomeo]

Yeah, mommy ate daddy after using him- like a blackwidow lol but I'll never say anything bad about her mom to her. I know STBXW loves DD and I'm thankful for that. Also since DD's half me and half her she can't deny loving part of me...ok enough with my philosophical statements.

Alice, DD's doing ok with the cat thing now, still she tells everyone we see "I'm sad because a coyote ate my 2 yo cat...". I think it's OK, it's her way of dealing with it by sharing her pain with everyone and recieving sympathy and support in return.

Well nothing has been settled out of court other than the household stuff- even that is not really done. I sent her that email about me emptying out the dressers etc and to come and get her stuff but she hasn't responded. I've thought about forcing this issue but why? it's not really in the way and with the cat stuff etc I don't want to kick her while she's down.

Other than that there hasn't been any other discussion in regard to splitting up the assets so to court it goes for now.

As for me, I was doing better over the last few weeks but the last couple of days have been a bit tough. I think it had to do with DD. I was hoping to have a good bonding time with her but it just didn't turn out that way. Yesterday the temps were in the mid 90s so after I picked her up from school we drove straight home as opposed to going to a park. Well, our power was out and had been out for almost the whole day. So we walked into a nice 90degree house with the poor cats probably cursing me too.

Thankfully the neighbor across the street let run an extension cord to power up my refrigerator and I used a battery pack to power a small fan in DD's room for the night but it was hot.

Today I'm feeling a bit lonely- even at work. Don't know why but my mind keeps latching on to "I need a woman in my life". I keep reminding myself I don't need a woman but I think that's where the difference between a need and want comes in. Will I breathe, eat, function without one? of course, is it all I want? no. I miss the intimacy, the connection I was used to. Well not soo much the former as I got turned down a lot- but I've always been persistent

I was talking to a friend on IM.

Him: "one word buddy: cougar!"
Me: "no thanks, not really into that and to be honest cougar or not I'm just afraid of any kind of a relationship these days. I don't know if someone will have an agenda of any kind"
Him: "why?"
Me: "umm...I don't know, like what if they have STD, or just want to get pregnant or who knows what?"
Him: "you're paranoid"
Me: "ok what do you consider a cougar?"
Him: "someone who's either a divorcee or widow and tend to be in at least their late 30's they're out to have fun with their newly found freedom but it's not just 20's fun. they're ready to get serious if they find someone suitable."
Me: "well you just described STBXW as she is today, no thanks!"
Him: "lol- well if you're not ready you're not ready"

In other news I got a couple of things from my Amazon wishlist and then felt guilty for spending money when I shouldn't be. But I gotta live my life too so after mulling over it for a couple of days I'm over it. Looking forward to getting them.

This weekend I have to change the brakes on my car, flush the brake fluid, rotate tires, top-off and check over the car. I put almost 40k miles on it a year. That and hopefully a bike run if the weather cooperates.