I don't know what she is going to do for one day to the next. i don't believe that she caused me pain on purpose. i really don't. i think that she is trying to keep her safty valve open just in case she needs me since she is running out of places to go. i know that we are not suppose to try to understand what they are thinking but the crying she does and promises and feelings of regret that she says she has. i don't get it. i don't believe she is coming this weekend to stay. why did she tell me that. what has happened between yesterday and today? I don't know. it is hard not to try to understand the reasoning. I am scared of her now. i do want her to come home but i am scared. I don't think that i will have to worry about what to do.
