I don't know what she is going to do for one day to the next. i don't believe that she caused me pain on purpose. i really don't. i think that she is trying to keep her safty valve open just in case she needs me since she is running out of places to go. i know that we are not suppose to try to understand what they are thinking but the crying she does and promises and feelings of regret that she says she has. i don't get it. i don't believe she is coming this weekend to stay. why did she tell me that. what has happened between yesterday and today? I don't know. it is hard not to try to understand the reasoning. I am scared of her now. i do want her to come home but i am scared. I don't think that i will have to worry about what to do.
And I don't know what i can do about fixing her. just love her and get her in rehab and counceling. Try to understand her problems better than i do so that i can be better equiped to handle problems as they occur. I would do those things if she came back. i want her to be happy. i thought she needed to make the choice of husbands without me talking to her so I have not and will not call her.
She has been told by the doctors that she is bipolar-she is just in the last month starting to take meds for this problem.
By the way par4me, you can "become" bi-polar or have a "bi-polar split", from leading a double life. You have to do a lot of lieing and keeping track of the realities.
If the person comes out of it, IE: no need to lie or lead double life the "bi-polar" symtoms dissapear.
So perhaps your wife coming home and being good, and you provide stable loving foundation for her and she will be fine and so will you.
By the way, she has not called or contacted me today. That is just what i was expecting. I erased her number and blocked facebook so i will not be tempted to contact her. i cant help her if she doesn't want me to. she just said that she did. So i was going to try and get her what she needed.
