Anyway, I could go on and on, but who cares, right? I can't do anything about it anyway. So I'm not even gonna think about it. I will just be the happy girl he met 20 years ago. I'll be nice and smile and not pressure him, keep telling him I'm glad he's home, and just try to make him feel secure. I will love him from a distance. I'll start doing things away from the house on the weekends so he can think by himself, (and screw other women) and I'll start looking into my future to see what I can do to keep myself busy. I will try to think the best of him and not dwell on the bad things. And just hope and pray with all my heart that he comes to his senses before it's too late.
Feel better? I bet not. The pity party never helps. The sarcasm doesn't either. And the nastiness won't either. None of it will help you focus on YOU. You are paying lip service to working on you and getting the focus off H.
Honey, he may never "come to his senses". There are no guarentees.
That's why you must WORK ON YOU.
STOP FOCUSSING ON YOUR H.
PERIOD.
Taylor, help yourself. You are the only person you should be focussing on and worrying about.
PEI
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc
