I used this site about 10 years ago when my first M was on the rocks. It worked for a while, then my 1st W and I decided we were better off, young and no kids. Now 2nd chapter moved to TX, met W #2 soon after my move. Was reserved about getting involved quickly, but it happened. Been together almost 8 years, separated in 11/07 she had an affair, I was non existent as a father and husband, so I dont blame her completely. Reconciled in 5/07 been together ever since. The last year has been tough again, I have been drinking more, I work in 2 highly stressful occupations, housing and Law Enforcement. We have a 5 year son and a 3 year old daughter. Now I will get in to the issues at hand.
My W has had serious issues with her upbringing. Lost her mother to cancer at 10 years old, raised by different family members after that. She deals with a lot of baggage and abandonment issues. She doesnt say she doesnt love me anymore, just that I have anger issues and that she will not be vulnerable to m, she is afraid of letting her guard down and going back to the ways thing were which made us both unhappy. I have not had a drink in 6 days and am going to quit completely. I have gone to 2 meetings and will continue to work on myself. I am very upset about this, but I know there is nothing I can do other than give her space. I will not pursue, I will be happy and funny and loving when I am around them, which I know she will say that we are better for our children apart than together.I am eaten up inside and she is of course acting like all is fine. I am moving in with my Brother this weekend, and need to focus on ME. This is so hard for me to deal with on top of everthing else negative in my life, and yet it seems so easy for the WAW.
