Thanks Koliver.

Nope, no affair. But I'm always being accused of one. I should probably have realized his jealousy streak earlier, but I blew it off as us having just gotten back together after almost a year of a long distance relationship while dating/engaged.

It's not just me saying he has ADD, he does. He was on meds until around HS I think. He thinks he grew out of it.

I know I have to start doing things for me. This I know. But in my case it's hard when I'm then accused of having an affair (or in this last case- of planning to have an affair).

I was 17 when I met H. Dated only 1 guy previously. H was my first sexually; my only. But I still get questions as to whether I'm telling the truth.

H always says he fell in love with me because I was so fun and outgoing. But now, he doesn't want to go do anything, and when I go do things without him, I'm mean or not in love, or cheating.

It's a freakin circle and I'm getting dizzy!!!!

The backwards part is, I'm not jealous at all! He can go have drinks with female co-workers, he can go downtown to a strip club, watch porn, go gambling....I'm not threatened at all. I see no problem. If the guys wanna go, then go. Shoot, I'll go with him if he wants. smile

But I don't get that in return.... I'm not sure I ever really did. Does that make sense?

So somehow I need to explain to H that he needs to let me be me?


T: 23 M:20
S:17 D:14
Bomb 1: 07/05
Busted: 07
Bomb 2: 07/10
D papers: 11/11

True love doesn't come by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly--Jason Jordan