I think exposure backfired?

[AntoniaB]

Well I've put out a few requests for help, am waiting on responses. I've already been told by my mother, though, that based on all that everyone in my family has had to witness with me and all the heartache and now all this sheer workload he dumped on me, that if he ever came back that THEY would never forgive nor accept him into the family. It's like I'm getting warnings from them now that if that situation were to arise, that I'd nearly have to choose between them. I mean he just walked out leaving me a horrible mess outdoors. Our shed, you can't even walk into it, it's a total junk pile and I don't know what's important and what's not. I asked him what I'm supposed to do with it and he said "burn it down." ??? Our mower broke for the last time and was unfixable the first time I used it. It was so old he had kept it hanging together by a thread. I had no choice but to go buy one on credit because it would cost me more to hire a service for a year than to buy a mower. My alternative of course was to allow him to keep doing all this yardwork. Oh, he offered, many times, but I feel like that crosses my boundary of protection and only allows him to feel useful. I don't want that. It lets him have it both ways.

today I feel like throwing in the towel with him. For real. Like I need to file for what he has turned my life into. But it's only 6 weeks today since the bomb dropped. So maybe it's just today.