9lives- I want the real deal. I don't expect my wife to think I'm some Greek God, but I want her to love and lust for me. I just don't know if that can come back for her. Hell, she doesn't even like my touch, much less want intimacy. She's said our sex was good, but she never felt an "animalness" to it. Maybe that's a MLC thing for women. I don't know. When we were dating, we were like rabbits; she remembers a 17 day consecutive streak... A different lifetime for sure.
Trying to understand what she's thinking/feeling is so tiring. I can listen til the cows come home, but other than her feeling trapped, and not feeling physical attraction to me, she's really confused. So space/separation is probably the best thing for her and us.
I just refuse to let myself live based on waiting for someone to "come around." I'm getting healthier, calmer, more assertive, and more honest. I'm doing these things for myself and my daughters, but a small part of me hopes that these changes bring her back. I guess we all do on this site.
