Look at far you've come. Several months ago you were ready to swear off men forever. There are lots of great guys out there. You'll find another.
You brought up a great thing -- holding hands. I really miss that. I love holding my girls hands when we are together -- but it's not the same thing.
One thing on insurance -- it's going to cost you more as well. You likely get a multi-car discount and that will go away when you divorce. My insurance will go from $45 a month to $65 a month after the divorce and STBXW's will go up $20 a month as well.
You should split the insurance now though. Have the company send him a bill and you a bill. As long as you're married you get the discount, but at least you don't have to wait around for money from him.
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