H and I are doing fine, H is being very affectionate still, he has backed off a little but I suppose it couldn't of staid the way it was, with him texting me all the time.
He has got back into the old routine of living together, this bothers me just a little as I feel it culd easily go back to the way it was.
He has started to fall aslepp on the sofa of an evening, this made me go off and do stuff before and then he acted like I was the one distancing.
The sex between us has died down LOL he has always had a lower SD than me, this makes me think he dont fancy me ( I Know I know)
Any ways thats the bad news!!!
Good news!!
Wew are moving, we want to develop our life together, he wants a sailing boat, I want a horse. In the past he has always done all he wants, he goes on sailing holidays and goes sailing with a friend, I did nothing ( I couldn't afford to) this made me resentful. I told H in one of our R talks that I always let him develop his dreams but I could never develop my own. I told him this made me resentful, however, H thought I was resentfull because he did these things, that wasn't the case, it was because I couldn't!!!
So, we are buying a house with some land and stables and Im getting my horse. H is buying a boat. ( trouble is I dont like sailing lol) The other reason for moving is to get another room. H told me whilst we were seperated I never supported him with his kids. This is pot calling kettle, but hey, if he feels like that I guess I have to respect it. So I suggested we get another room so his kids do not have to stick to their specific weekends they can have a key and just turn up when they want.
H suggested the other day we go out look at a car!!!!! you will not beleive it, I have had my car for 10 years, I have aked and asked for another one, only to be told we cant afford it, then he goes out and buys golf clubs, sailing gear, etc etc.
In the end I resigned myself to the fact I was not getting one and just drove around in my old banger. When he said this the other day, I nearly fainted!!
So, hes trying, im trying.
He comes home from work at a resonable time, he picks D up from school when he can. He calls me honey
He has said ILY, but not often and my christmas card was not " to the one I love" like it used to be it was " To someone very special" So im grateful for that seeing as this time last year, well... you all know.
I still get feelings arise now and again, and I have to snub the urge to check his phone or brief case, I will not do that!!!
Mind you he is occasionly still secretrive. He puts his phone in his pocket and stuff, But I think thats because he dont rtust me!!!
