I think exposure backfired?

[AntoniaB]

I'm really not sure where I'd be if it weren't for the advice from people on this board. It's really helpful.

I have to say that I'm feeling a bit like Jack-Three-Beans myself now because this is the first I've felt like I could tear him apart with my bare hands. Right now he's off on a vacation (not with the OW but with 2 male friends) seeing amazing sights, and I'm here picking up my shattered life and handling everything because he won't, and that's bad enough, but this yard, my god. I have over an acre to take care of and it's like a small park. I have a decent riding mower and can handle that fine, but the weather here has gone from drought to lots of rain so there are weeds like 1 foot to waist high everywhere and I am trying so hard to take care of all this and I'm just a wreck. It's so overwhelming. I do not at all have money to hire someone to take care of this for me. My friends, well I have been leaning on them to a ridiculous degree for emotional help and stuff, and I don't feel right asking someone to come over and do my yard in additiont to theirs. It's a ton of work. And the property settlement is on its way to my WH to sign and it gives me the house for my buying out his equity, and that's because he took everything else from me so I do not want to lose my house because I am most secure and happy here, but I am feeling like I really can't handle the workload. I mean right now I'm off work; if I can't handle this now how will I once I am back fulltime again? I'm just beyond frustrated today. Thanks for letting me vent.