Irish, the hurt will eventually fade and even go away, but that time is not now. Right now you need to feel it, use it to examine your role in any of this mess, and then use it to propel you forward. Become the best version of Irish possible. Use the hurt to remember any mistakes you've made in your past, use it to drive any changes you want to make, use it to avoid backsliding ...
You, my friend, are doing very well. Chin up. It gets easier. It really does. And DBing will become for you a way of life, a way of relating to people ... it will become effortless and integrated into your life. You are strong Irish, but that doesn't mean that you won't hurt and you won't feel. As Grit says, it's all in how you react to it. And you are doing fine!
Peace PEI
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc