Making progress and reconnecting.....ayieee

[CPCajun]

Son of a....

Check the phone logs..OM contacted W the day she left to go on the business trip. I am so disappointed. I know I cant jusge anything by the text log, for all I know she told OM off. Regardless, she interacted with him instead of ignoring him.
Two, I just found out why I am stressing over how to pay the bills. W has had a personal bank account and been living pretty while the rest of us suffer. Kids and I wear second hand clothes, and eat what we can afford. W on the other hand has nice lunches at the fast food joints, and visits the clothing stores often. Oh..her mom also sent her money to help pay some bills. MIL paid in cash and not one deposit to any bank account. She just outright spent it. Also snooped around and found out she was getting child support from ex....sigh.....

I am so hurt and disappointed by this, plus the affair. I am going to confront her again. After vacation. I have now let her go. Either she will own up to this, as I am not being 100% to blame anymore. I am moving into the house and will be the support this family needs. If W doesn't like it, I will show her the door. I will be as polite,calm,cool,and collective. I am still not angry or mad, just hurt. I want this to end so we can move forward together or not.

I want to know why she was selfish and put this family thru this.
I want to know why and if "it" happened.
I want to know why she wants to work it out.
I want to hear her call OM and say LEAVE ME ALONE and DO NOT CONTACT ME....

/rant...