Heartbroken and needing help!

[irishblessings]

OK - it's now an hour plus later and I've stopped crying. I know the feelings that I am having are to be expected. I'm tired and hurt.

I almost backslid - I texted my H and asked if he was busy. I was going to confront him about the phone calls. He replied "not busy what's up". I waited and texted back "never mind - sorry to bother you." H texts "what's up" I text "nothing all good" He texts "I don't believe you - what do you want to talk about" - and I text "just a long day - thanks though - sorry for bothering you." He texts "what's going on" and I text "all good. I promise - have a good night" I am glad that I stopped myself - which I would have done it prior to even sending the first text - but I'll forgive myself!

Wow - I can't believe this is my life right now. Posters have been talking about how the MLCr "rewrites" history - and it really is incredible! With a flip of a switch, my life has gone from a "normal" middle class family - to this broken one. And I feel like H is in complete denial. The kids and I feel like roadkill! With him driving the steamroller!

OK - pity party over! I'm going to bed!