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[Jayce]

HAHAHA! Besides the little stretchy "appliance" there's the vibrator. I'd like to try introducing one into foreplay but I'm scared to death he'll freak SO bad he'll never come near me again AND realize something else....& I have no idea what his reaction would be to THAT! I'm also afraid that at some future time if he's really not in the mood when I want to ML, he'll throw the idea in my face & tell me to use one & that would just about kill me. Even if a crack like that came from embarrassment that he feels he's inadequate it would still kill me.

When he told me years ago that he never masturbated, I just figured it was another one of the things he refuses to talk about for fear of ridicule or something. Somewhere I saw a list of behaviors that indicate LD, but I've forgotten where, or what all was on the list.

Well, another weekend is here, another chance to have some success. We may be visiting his relatives next weekend & staying at divorced male cousin's home. There's a sure fire recipe for NO sex whatsoever. Did I mention I've listened to the sex jokes these guys make & in light of their behavior, I think the jokes are smoke screens to make each other think they're hot stuff? Ahhhhh, crap.

I had a good time riding my horse in the 4th of July parade. She is a great little horse. Some of my pals have horses that still act up even tho they've had them for years.
Have a good weekend. It is good to 'talk' to you again,
jayce