Still trying to find my way

[Mystik]

I'm sorry that I'm putting you through so much grief, and it sounds empty when I say it'll get better ... I think it's doing us both more harm than good to hold on to a relationship that is over. Yes, we had our good times to go along with all the bad, there's things both of us could have and should have done differently. I really think that if rather than dwelling on the past, we focus on the future and moving to a better place it'd be better for everyone involved. What's done is done - our marriage is over, all that's left is the formality of completing the legal paper work.

I know you still hold out hope that somehow someway things can still work out and nothing I can say will change that. I think you may be holding on to the idea of being married and in love more than holding on to me specifically. I think your resistance to the divorce has less to do with any actual feelings for me, and more to do with the desire to be loved and be happy. Please realize that any chance you have for those desires rests with you moving on so you can find what you are looking for ... as there is no chance to satisfy those desires with me. I'm sorry that I was able to move on first, but I truly hope that you will be able to do the same.

I want you to know though, by trying so hard to make things so difficult, it's only driving a wedge between us and making it harder for us to be civil which is only going to make a bad situation worse for DS. Mystik, it's time to let go of a broken marriage and work toward building a better life for yourself. DS needs you to be strong, he's being strong for you but it's an awfully large burden to place on a 6 year old.

This is hard to hear, and difficult to accept, but I have moved on. I am in love with husband-stealing Whore. Not just because she is pregnant with my child, or because things fell apart with you and me. Your efforts cannot save our marriage, only hurt my new relationship and make staying friends with you increasingly difficult.