Good day of golf with my dad today. The older we both get, the more I value these opportunities to spend time together doing something we both really enjoy. At lunch, they had honey from a local apiary that my wife loves that isn't available where we live. I had taken her car in to get some work done on it this morning, so I bought some and left it for her find when she got in the car.
Still only text and email contact, but I am struggling with it. Asked how she was doing and if she wanted to meet when I brought back her car. Her answer was no, she couldn't but did I want her to call. I said no, dropped off the car and went on my way. All I really accomplished by this was pursuing (bad move) and getting rejected (sad move). I guess I have a hard time learning my lesson. As much as it hurts, I have to realize that, at this point in time, I am not the most important person in her life. And the more I want to be, the longer it is going to take for it to happen, if it ever does.
Time to work on me. Starting the copy of "Divorcebusting" I got in the mail yesterday. A good friend is giving me a copy of "Battlefield of the Mind" tomorrow and I will be reading it as well. Thank God for good friends that understand the emotions I am going through and are willing to listen and help me.
M - 43 WAXW - 42 Married - 24 years Together - 25 years S - 23 - passed away 10/17/09 S - 22 Bomb - PA - 6/23/10 - WAW moved in with OM same night D-day - 9/17/10
