Thank you Snodderly & Kissak....thanks for making me feel better for not being here for my friends right now....I'll be back.

I'm very very busy....but I'm also "taking a test drive" of living my life without being dependent on the DB boards...And you guys were my life line for months...from the time I woke up to late late at night...I've spent endless hours in here looking for hope and answers.

I'm doing pretty good now....mind you, H is away with OW...that makes things better....I don't have to deal with him and there are no nasty surprises for these 2 weeks and then I'll be away for 2 weeks.....so it's like a month of mental vacation for me....healing time....processing time.

Had dinner with an old GF last night, we reconnected on FB ....she went through a horrible divorce few years back....and it almost destroyed her...she resorted to substance abuse to cope and was in really rough shape for a while. It was great to see her now...how much she grew as a person, how she caged her demons, cleaned up and blossomed into a lovely, wise and happy lady...what a wonderful transformation....she credits God for pulling her through...I credit HER for saving herself...with God's help.

(((hugs to all)))

M53 H54 D17
M33Y T38Y
Bomb OW 09/09
OUT 10/09 BACK 11/09 OUT 01/10
WANTS TO R 04/10 BACK with OW 05/10
Wants to Reconcile 05/11 I said NO