the worst feeling for me .. is knowing that i worked so hard to be financially independent. to support others. and with the money issues raised in this d, h is trying to loot the bank before he takes off for good. and i have to fight for what i worked for. it really hurts. is that all that people want from me? money? people cannot see beyond the dollar signs? it's difficult not to let these things define you when that's the message that people surrounding me have been sending me.
when we would visit my ILs, i often paid for dinner. when my ILs would visit us, i also paid for dinner. it was very rare that i didn't pay for dinner. even when i was out with my h. and it seemed as if this had become expected of me.
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Don't tell anybody but I came up with this to help myself get thru some dark days. Time for you to decide who "Dumpling" really is. Greek came up with "Dumpling" BTW. Take care of yourself.
dumpling, huh? i'll try to say it with a straight face. this mini bomb isn't a true dark day. i know there are more ahead.
this doesn't stop me from giving financially to good causes. just because i may be a bit guarded, it doesn't stop me from giving. i'll bring in extra food and share with those who may be going through a rough time. i still mentor those who want career advice. i know that this is who i am. i give in different ways. the selfish part of me? i feel good. i feel valued and it has nothing to do with what i make.
i love giving to children. they are so innocent. they love you for you because they have no concept of money yet. you can feel that the love is genuine.
i'll try to say it with a straight face. 
