In my mind she didnt ask or consult us in her decision to break up the family the way she is doing.
you need to get your mind straight
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In late summer of 2008 we had gone to a picnic and I got totally bombed. In fact, stupid drunk. I dont get like that too often. Anyway when we got home, of course I wanted her and I to make love. Well, she wasnt into it. ( I apologize again that i need to be graphic) sorry.. Instead I had asked for W to perform oral sex on me. Well, she did but now I find out that this is a big problem for her. You see, I was very agressive with her. I complained a that she wasnt doing it right, and that I couldnt get off. She now tells me that she was scared, that she has never seen me like that. The look in my eyes scared her. I know I was very drunk, and repeatedly apologized to her.
We had left home after that and went to a friends home. I told her there "jokingly so I thought" that she was a terrible c*&ksucker... Terrible, I know. I am ashamed and have told her that too. I embarrassed her and degraded her. I cannot express how aweful I feel that I did that to her.
Last night she tells me that the reason we cannot be intimate is because of the reminder of that day. It was the day that I broke her. ( Her words)She was scared, and she remembers the look in my eyes, smells etc. Leading up to that day the disconnecting was happening anyway. That incident was the icing on the cake.
