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and that's why the label hurts so much.
it's like the whore comment. it has left a lasting scar.
people have benefitted financially from me for years.



I understand this. The people you tried the most to please and wanted the love and acceptance of hurt you with their words. The passive-aggressive behavior is a coping mechanism to deal with this hurt. You control by not doing. It's a form of anger. Understand it to find a solution.

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i'm suddenly worthless and lower than the gum stuck on the bottom of your shoe.


Kill this snake. This is you saying this to yourself.

This is going to sound hokey but try it. Go home and look yourself in the mirror and say out loud while putting your hand on your heart, "You are special 'Dumpling' and I love you."

Don't tell anybody but I came up with this to help myself get thru some dark days. Time for you to decide who "Dumpling" really is. Greek came up with "Dumpling" BTW. Take care of yourself.


M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12
Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.