Could it be you are not happy with who you are b/c you haven't become yourself yet. You have been trying to please and be for everyone else for so long, perhaps now that you see the impact that has had on your life, YOU will emerge.
there is so much going on in my head when i read that statement above. from the impact of what my father said to me. to trying to understand the difference between being a doormat and standing up for myself in this d. to trying to figure out what i want and not be selfish. it determines what action or step i take.
it's funny you say that i've been trying to please everyone. friend of mine recently told me that i've been very selfish since the d-bomb was dropped. i used to think about everybody else and now i only think and care about me. i was told to stop thinking about me and start thinking about others.
i feel the pressure of the expectations place on me to be a certain way.
i need to work on sorting all of those things out.
