Gritt; my H used to call and sing me happy birthday in his Frank Sinatra voice. he didn't do it this past year because he was too busy thinking about his OW cuz she was getting ready to move to another town (lucky me!). He didn't even get me a card or anything. I missed his Frank Sinatra song the most. It is always the highlight on my special day.
No, I didn't say that when I took my vows. Where do you get all these awesome quotes and poems?
So..today I think I'll go up to the street fair, get some groceries, jump on my bike for awhile and look for more jobs. I may even look for some jobs in my daughter's town..4 hours away. I need to be around my friends and family. I've been away too long. I didn't mind it when my H and I were a team, but now that we're not, it's no fun.
You say..why not make friends there? Cuz I don't even want to me here anymore..in the winter it's like being in fricken Antarctica. I don't have a 4 wheel drive so I'm gonna have a heck of a time getting to a job when he's gone all the time.
I'm a bit of a gloomy guss today aren't I? I need to stop that. It bummed me out when I stepped on the scale this morning and saw that I hadn't lost any..I have been working my a## off. I'm stopping it right now. Happy..that's me! I wish he wasn't coming home today..I just can't seem to stop tearing up all the time and i'm not even sure what it is that I'm so sad about..see here I go, tears sliding down my face just talking about it.
I'd better go before I have everyone all bummed out.
