Just Confronted - A Litttle Confused

[Quicksilver264]

In any case, if your W came back tomorrow, she would do it again because YOU have NOT CHANGED.

I will disagree with that statement. The intel I collect is to protect MYSELF, know what is going on, and give me knowledge.

I may fall apart from time to time, but through this all I found the strength TWICE to face the brutality of exposure.

When I FIRST found out about the sexting, I confronted her, but backed down because the said she was "sorry" and I took her at her word. I didn't want to push her away anymore.

But when it came down to it the last 2 times, as much as I DIDN'T want to, I DID it.

And I didn't back down one bit when she left to her friends. And I am not GOING to.

Like I said I may fall apart when I am ALONE. But I an finding myself becoming stronger and stronger everyday.

Like last night when she abruptly got offline. There's a 50/50 chance she might have had someone come to do her. I just have to accept that possibility, and do what is right for ME.

I know having all the intel in the world is right FOR ME. It helps me to have the situation under control, and face the EXTREME HARSH REALITY of my situation.

It FORCES me to confront the darkness, and each time I do that it helps me to get further away from the rope I just dropped.