Again, since last night (and it may come and go) I really don't care what she thinks or says of me. I KNOW I'm doing the right thing and I know I will be the stable influence for D.
It'll be sad to watch my W's life deteriorate and spiral out of control but I can't control that. Maybe it won't. Not important. I'm pretty comfortable with the fact that even if her current mindset isn't purely delusional regarding her feelings for our M and me, it doesn't change the fact that I deserve better than the marriage I have now and the one I lived for the last two years. I also had to come "out of the fog"
I'm concerned over the cost of doing this through a lawyer but it will be cheaper in the long run than doing it without.
If I can get everything I want in the Sep Agreement, the rest wil be a "Desk Divorce" Just ink.
Just want her out of the house and away from me. Wish I could keep them away from D. But if she has to watch mommy go through the collapse of the A, I can show D that daddy is OK and safe; and if I see she's hurting, sue stbxw for full custody.
So the ooner I can get this finsished, the sooner I can return to normal....or the new normal.
