However, since I have detached, I do not feel much at all for wife.
That whole post was about your wife and how she makes you feel. Go back and read it again. You the victim here or are you a leader?
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.