So my biggest problem in the whole process of the WAW has been Patience and Disconecting. I think I have finally disconnected and that has brought the patience. However, since I have detached, I do not feel much at all for wife. In fact I feel very little for her now. I resent her so much for this whole thing. The more I look into and search my feelings, the more I find that she put very little into this relationship to begin with. So for her to be upset with me is really killing me. I did not do very much. I will lay claim to the things I did, but our problems are very petty. She just makes them out to be more than they are. I really would like a chance to go to a MC to see if there is somethnig more that I do not see and she is not telling. But at this point I am starting to feel like I could do better. However, if she would grow up a bit and act her age and actually contribute to the relationship, then it could work. See the dileema?
Tonight she is going to a concert with a friend. She bought the tickets secretly a month ago. I found the bank statement from her other checking account and saw the purchase. Confronted her and she said that she was going to tell me about it. I asked when as it was less than a week from the concert and what is she goign to do with our S. Naturally, the answer was that she would figure somethnig out. Well, tonight is the concert and she decided to leave S with MIL overnight. I told her it is not right to make decisions regarding S without asking me. Have some respect. She said OK, but plans stay in tact. Times like these, I do not care what she does as long as she is away.
So the question of the day. Will she grow up before it is too late? Can she? Since her sister and mother are self-centered children with children, I am thinking no. But she was not always like this. But maybe she is becoming more like her mother as she is getting older. Any thoughts out there?
