Yes, it is tough. No expression doesn't mean anything. She very well could be hiding it. I used to think that I would feel so much better if I just knew that my wife was hurting too I would feel better. She was. I read a post once that said that they think about you and situation way more than you think they do. It is on their mind all the time just like it is on yours. This reassured me. I hope things get better for you and you hurt heals and your heart is not broken anymore.