Well she kept calling today and I would not answer even called my work. She finally texts that she is sorry, she made a mistake and that her place is with me, she said she would do anything to work this relationshp out and wants to go to marriage counsling and to rehab to control the pills. Yes, I am pretty happy.She ask if I could ever forgive her. I told her that I already had forgiven her and forgotten about this huge mistake. She told me that forever with me is what is wanted. You may think I am nuts. Most of the people that I have been talking to think so. Yes, tht got a somewhat biased side when I tell my story but I don't think it is too biased. She flipped out, made a huge mistake, she nevered cared for the guy, she didn't have time to. But I am sure she did sleep with him. This a issue that I am going to havea problem with. I have to remind myself that I have done the same.
But I am sorry there is a double standard when you a talking about your girl. Guys don't want anyone touching their girl. It is an issue that I will bring up in counceling but I truely can't hold against her since I did the same. I just have always thought that her body was mine, I think that girls think different about sex, it is more about emotion that lust. Maybe I am wrong. I am wrong about a lot of things. Right now, it is just spilled milk. I get butterflies when I see her and she is coming flying home this weekend for good so she says. I think she will. I am going to get over my issues and be a good husband. All I wanted was one more chance. Many on this board never get the chance. I have had many.
I have had chances in the past and made promises and then went back to the same ole me. I have to make sure that for her to change her ways that I must change mine. I have to not neglete her, call her names or emotional abuse her. I think that if she feels loved and wanted she might not want or need the pills to dim her wits and dim her life because she would enjoy it. Maybe, maybe not. But she said she would seek help and do whatever it took to get this relationsip back to where we were best friends again. She was mine. I have told her my deepest secrets and feelings. I want my friend back also, I don't care about the sex or having my lover back, just a bonus. I truel miss my friend. I have lots but none as close, I don't know how what got into this situation and how it got so bad. Just neglete by me.
