Need a Plan for My Marriage

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Met W at McDonalds for dinner with kids tonight. She said she went to IC. It seems to be that she is doing this for custody reasons more than her own "betterment." Maybe it will help. I hope so. I don't whether this is good or not. It may just validate that what she is doing is okay. It is interesting that she chose to do this. She received a text from OM at 9:19 pm tonight, and I think another one too.

S had a tantrum, and said family is "messed up," and he does not know how to talk to mom about it. He told me she is "being mean to our family." I am so saddened by this. More grief for him.

I found out more good news on the job I interviewed for. The recruiter wants me to improve my PP test. He believes that they will have an answer this week. He thinks it is my turn this time. I have interviewed with the company about 5 times. I turn down a short term temporary position to interview for this. I hope I did not make a mistake. I need the money bad, but this is long-term, and I could be hired permanently in the future. The pay is good too. I need this so bad. I am confident I can do it.

I do think that kids really need me, and I will be there for them the best that I can. This will hurt S and D so bad when we do not live together.

Meeting went well with OMW, and I think she is ready to D OM. I don't know if this is either. Something has to help. I have a month before our first hearing. I have to make something happen fast I think.

W is trying harder at home to look good for the courts I think too.

I did use the credit card tonight, and I told that kids need to eat dinner, and I will take them before she comes home. I am standing up to her more and more. It feels good too.