Doesn't feel like it's going to kill me anymore, just slowing me down.
We talked tonight, still swinging back and forth between "we can be close" and "we're trying to distance". Both of us. She told me how she misses me. I admitted to overreacting when we start to get a little closer again, because then I think, but I'm NOT your husband, you didn't want me. And I abruptly distance.
And then she said, "no, it was you who didn't want me" - and we stopped that before it became an argument.
She wasn't feeling good and said "I just want to snuggle..." !!!! And I said, "you want to snuggle WHAT exactly?" And she just groaned.
Anyway. As Karen I'm sure would point out, a version of what's been going on all along. But tonight we ended up somewhere in the middle. Talking. But not at either extreme - too friendly or too unfriendly. Mostly - just familiar.
I've worked all night, I'm going to read a little and go to sleep.
