Wow. That is thin. I'm a shade under 6-0 and have weighed between 155 and 175 for the past five years. I'm about 165 now and think I'm perhaps too thin.
Are you lifting at all? Or just not eating?
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I THINK I'm eating. Last year I was having problems eating. Now, I think it's either maybe habit, or I can't take the rich foods and quantities of food I used to eat.
Go for a phyical just to make sure everything is as it should be. It'll be one less worry! What about those supplement drinks? Check with your doctor or pharmicist.
I've always been thin. I'm 6ft and weight about 158lbs on a good day. I've been working out 2 or 3 times a week lately, just at home, a fast paced P90x style workout. It's helping me tone up...but not bulk up I think that's a matter of calorie intake.
G, I think you're still within your ideal weight range:
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Wii - they did some bloodwork on me a couple of months ago when I had a colonoscopy, came back clean.
SR - yeah, maybe. But I weigh less now than I did in college, and I guess that means in my adult life. Different people keep bringing it up, so I suppose I don't look so good.
Anyway, not to dramatize it. I ate more for breakfast this morning, and I really felt sick for awhile, so I'm not used to big meals anymore. Just need to change habits, and yeah probably more exercise.
Just kind of darting in and out on the message board - sorry guys, not spending a lot of time reading threads... Work is keeping me pretty busy, and spending time with the kids at home (played the each in chess last night
Mental management: you know, some days I'm good, others I'm not. Trying to figure out how to return to that calm, focused state of mind when I'm having a bad day - obsessive thinking, still thinking about what happened, why, what to do, what I didn't do, sorry, regret, etc.
So far the most stablizing thought I have is: I'm single.
Kind of cuts all the other ones off.
Still a sense of disreality to all this, and seems like my mind insists on continuing to process it. So: I'm single.
Most of us can relate to how you feel. Some days are better than others...but overall...over time...the general trend is to get better. We all will. Accepting the fact that 'this is real', and that it's not gonna kill you...helps. It hurts like a mutha, and all of the other negative emotions make it quite painful. But at it's worst, even though you feel like it will...it won't kill you.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
Doesn't feel like it's going to kill me anymore, just slowing me down.
We talked tonight, still swinging back and forth between "we can be close" and "we're trying to distance". Both of us. She told me how she misses me. I admitted to overreacting when we start to get a little closer again, because then I think, but I'm NOT your husband, you didn't want me. And I abruptly distance.
And then she said, "no, it was you who didn't want me" - and we stopped that before it became an argument.
She wasn't feeling good and said "I just want to snuggle..." !!!! And I said, "you want to snuggle WHAT exactly?" And she just groaned.
Anyway. As Karen I'm sure would point out, a version of what's been going on all along. But tonight we ended up somewhere in the middle. Talking. But not at either extreme - too friendly or too unfriendly. Mostly - just familiar.
I've worked all night, I'm going to read a little and go to sleep.
