I had to sit here for a sec to think of how I would answer you two. You're right that it doesn't make sense that he would be treating me this way for no reason..all of a sudden. And reading the other stories and the way they are all so "scripted" for lack of a better word..well I can see that he is going thru some really weird, bad thing. But the pain you guys speak of..why pain..where does that come from? When I think pain, I think cringing, hurt, bleeding, suffering..he doesn't seem to be suffering one tiny bit. He seems to be having a pretty good time sneaking around with all of his girlfriends. he seems to be having a pretty good time saying mean and hateful little digs to me whenever he can get them in. And me..I'm not having a very good time. I don't even see that happening when I start to do things on my own and GAL. He will still be there reminding me of how he doesn't want me. At least he doesn't say it anymore..he doesn't have to. And his family..he f'd that up for me too. They hate me now. And I haven't DONE anything.
Anyway, I do feel bad that he is sick and obviously confused..but it's hard for me to believe that he doesn't know what he's doing. And then again..he seems to feel guilty sometimes too..oh I dont know..i have to just stop thinking about him..or I'll be right there with him in his misery and then who will be there to rescue US?
