The journey begins

[ClingingToHope]

Amazing how up I can be up and then down. I was feeling great all day about the house. Then it started to get close to having to pick up the girls and see STBXW and my chest started to tighten up.

Does that ever go away?

So I go to get the girls and D11 comes to the door and forgot something so she goes back inside. STBXW steps out of the door with some papers. It's the flyer for the house and she starts showing it to me and saying the photos came out pretty good and the first open house is next week and ...

And I took a couple of steps back and said "I don't care."

She looked at me and waived her arms and said "what do you want? For us to end up bankrupt?"

There were a lot of things I wanted to say to that. Instead I just stared at her for a few moments and said "Is D7 ready?"

The girls finally came out and we headed to the car and she asked when I'd have them back. I said 9ish and drove away.

I don't know what the DB rules are for that interaction. I'm trying to forgive but I'm not there yet. I would love to sell the house -- together -- and get our dream home. But right now, the best I can do is not yell at her.