Eric..I am afraid and I am insecure. And sometimes I do get mad, but really I don't hold grudges..I don't stay mad for long. That is one of the things I like about me..and I don't even try to be that way...which is even better! And as for pride..i don't have a problem with that to much either. I mean of course I want to be able to hold my head up and have people think I'm a great person making wise decisons (who doesn't)..but I don't do things because of what anyone is going to think or not think. If this all turns around and he becomes an even better person and husband, i could give a flying fig if anyone thinks I took too much crap from him. i'll just feel blessed that we made it thru all of it.
So that's not it..the reason I would give up is because I want to be happy too. And since there's no guarantees with all this MLC bull-oney, i don't know if I want to waste years of my life waiting for my H to come back, when he might meet one of these honeys, get her pg and leave anyway. He's convinced himself that he wants 2 more kids..I can't give them to him..so he'll find some way to do it in the state of mind he's in. And I'll be left wondering what the heck i was doing.
But...(there's that word, Grit)I guess I don't have anything else to do and nowhere else to go..so I just may stick it out for a while longer.
I actually feel better when he is traveling for work these days. I don't have to fake stuff and watch him fake it either.
I'm sorry to hear that you are getting divorced, Eric. I hope she comes to her senses soon. She's really missing out on a great guy.
