I know all about the hurt. The epain (and it's feeling a physical pain-chest pretty tight) plus the constant adrenaline-butterflies; the sense of loss and betrayal; and the regret that I wasn't "aware" enough to have prevented this by taking her "complaints" more seriously two years ago.
Ultimately, the self-loathing train stops with me. However, at no point did I quit on her or look outside the marriage nor risk emotional damage to my D or W by thinking divorce. I just failed to act on her words and my feelings that something wasn't right.
Empty.
I'll post her texts in a few minutes when D is in the bath.
