Where was that 2 x 4, Bill dear? Must have had a lot of bubble wrap!

Well I think That is what I did today, take control of myself. I faced my fears that H was again thinking of OW and, if nothing else, put the cat straight back amongst the pigeons. She is not going to make herself another fantasy about the bitchy W and if that leads her to make my H's life difficult, so much the better.

As to the making my M a project, for a while I had been feeling that I did not care to do it any more. I was sick and tired of pulling the darn cart and thinking I deserved better. And I do. Much better.

So I am going to be myself. If he likes it, fine. If not, he knows the alternatives. I thanked him this morning for his nice behavior the last week my bro was here. And I was sweet and nice to him in his office today.

But I am no doormat. If he needs one, it ain't going to be me...

"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little" Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"