I didn't have enough time to send it out yesterday 'cause my mom was over and I also went out and saw Eclipse.
When my mom was watching little girl sleep, I went on a walk. It was really nice, I was enjoying the sun and all the people on the trail.
Then WH called. And asked if he could come over. I tried to be polite but guarded. But I can't say no to him wanting to see little girl. Plus, I thought he might want to talk to me. So I said ok.
My mom was there and he came over. I did busy myself-- checked mail, got a massage in the apt community center, vacuumed the bedroom, etc, but I was 'there.' It's really really hard to keep to what I said in the email above. Which you guys edited out. About keeping the convo strictly about the baby. He asked me how Eclipse was, and I said it was fine. He asked how my day was, and I was similarly vague. I didn't ask him back. That's the best I could do.
I got the feeling that he came over to make sure I was 'okay.' I guess meaning that I wasn't crying, because we didn't talk! And when he left I think he felt sort of reassured. . . I don't know what to think of that.
I could have brought up the contents of the email above. But I didn't. So... I'm not even sure what to do with it now. It's like the opportunity passed. I don't know. I'll try to think about it.
me, 30 WH, 29 D born June 2010 M: July 2001 Bomb/S: 1/14/10 Done with it all.
