Well I am certainly lucky you happened to be by tonight And definitely my shoulder will be available for future crying as needed
It is probably the holidays... I have been a bit distant from the BB because I felt I was irradiating to much negative mojo and did not want to spill it on others. I've read the threads but tried to limit my daily hours... whatever.
The thing is I am tired. I am very, very tired of pulling this cart. I do not even know if it is worth it. Right now, the only thing that keeps me going is the fact that my D adores her Daddy and would hate it if we end up apart. I cannot even feel close to him...
Sometimes I wonder if the reason I have not dropped him as a hot potato is that I hate to lose and cannot contemplate the idea of leaving him for OW... Of being bested by a woman 13 years older than me...
Ugly, is it not?
"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little"
Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"
ok, so your tired, then that explains the dim look on things. please don't make any monumental decisions on things until the holidays are over. these are hard times, even in the best of circumstances
No, dear, I will not. Actually posting with you has helped me get off the brunt of the anger. I am even thinking of fixing dinner for him when he comes...
I will wait. Nothing lasts forever... but I sure hope I see some real progress in the near future.
I've been re-reading my old threads... it is discouraging how little progress we've had in three months...
Yes, you did warn me piecing was not going to be easy
"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little"
Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"
Quote: Can we get a motor for our carts, please? Any mechanical engineer listening?
just try and look at it as you are pushing your own cart and the h's will just have to start pushing theirs...you cannot bear the burden of their end as you have your own cart full of your own crap to push around...let him push his cart and if he can catch up great.
just think of how lighter the cart will be if you are only pushing your own.
Quote: Do not give me ideas, LL... I might, just might take you up on them...
it's not a bad idea at all, infact it's what you should be doing. worrying about yourself and taking care of yourself is pushing your own cart..there is no reason why you should be pushing his cart for him or worrying about what he's got in his cart, it's his friggen cart and let him push it as long as you're pushing it he doesn't have to and you will eventually burn out and stop pushing your own cart.
I am not saying give up on him or lock the wheels on his cart, or tip his cart over...I'm simply saying realize that you are trying to push two carts and worry about what's in both of them when you really only need to be worrying about your own cart.
