Well I am certainly lucky you happened to be by tonight And definitely my shoulder will be available for future crying as needed
It is probably the holidays... I have been a bit distant from the BB because I felt I was irradiating to much negative mojo and did not want to spill it on others. I've read the threads but tried to limit my daily hours... whatever.
The thing is I am tired. I am very, very tired of pulling this cart. I do not even know if it is worth it. Right now, the only thing that keeps me going is the fact that my D adores her Daddy and would hate it if we end up apart. I cannot even feel close to him...
Sometimes I wonder if the reason I have not dropped him as a hot potato is that I hate to lose and cannot contemplate the idea of leaving him for OW... Of being bested by a woman 13 years older than me...
Ugly, is it not?
"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little"
Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"
