Training for a Marathon, Hoping for a Sprint

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I know that I can't tell her this because it isn't what she needs to hear from me, but I LOVE MY WIFE! I have some awesome friends that I was able to unload on tonight about what is going on and the emotions I am going through. Since NC started on Saturday night, I haven't had another emotional letdown where I just lost it. I feel stronger and I know it isn't me that is in control. Interesting how someone who has been a problem solver and "fixer" his whole life is content to sit back and let this one get solved without my help/interference. I hope (pray) I can continue to stay the heck out of the way while God sorts it out. Some moments of weakness, but I have been smart enough to step back and gain perspective without letting my emotions take control. Another busy day tomorrow with an open gym, meeting my son for lunch, a long (25+ mile) bike ride and working on preparing for my new job. Hopefully I will be able to keep my mind off of my problems and on becoming a better me.

Look out world! Here I come!