Well... I am having a leg wax on Friday... does that count as self-pampering?
I tried buying myself something and did not feel like getting anything And right now I am mad at my H and very, very uninclined to DB.
I called him earlier this evening to tell him that I was taking D to ice skate and he was supposed to go Christmas shopping. After her class I called him to tell him we were on our way (that way he would not get home with the presents at the same time). Well, he had his cell phone off and mine for some reason does not recognize his pager number (which he knows, the jerk) so I had to call his answering service to page him. The a**h**e goes and gets mad at me!!!! The cheek!
He knows I am at the mall with our D. He knows I cannot page him because my cell does not dial his pager number (misteries of technology), he keeps his cell phone off so that I cannot reach him and now he gets mad because I call him the only way I can.
And he calls back FROM HIS OFFICE: he is at his office doing nothing instead of trying to finish and come back home.
You know, I think I was better off alone!!!!
I am going to the movies! He can go to h**l in a handbasket!
"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little"
Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"
ok opt, let's talk about this sweetie. i guess i am missing something here. is this something directly involved with the cell phone? help me out here, i know you have been feeling a bit down lately, we all have, but let me know what exactly is the problem - you have not really let on anything that we can help you with
I know, kitti, I am not making sense... The thing is rather stupid, I know but it has just made me so mad. I guess it has been cooking with the down feeling and all and now it is exploding.
It has to do with my H:
1. Not keeping his cell phone on (when I've asked him to in several occassions) when that is the only way of calling him when we are both out of the house.
2. Spending time after hours at his office when he is supposed to be shopping and coming home early.
3. Getting mad at me because I call him to warn him we are heading back home, so that D does not catch him with a car full of Xmas toys.
4. Not being available in general.
All this compounding my overall sense that something is very wrong...
"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little"
Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"
do you think that you are indeed trying to fulfill your own prophecy?
all of us are feeling really down these days (cyclical perhaps) and could these feeling be transferred to what you think is going on with hubby?
i used to be furious when i couldn't get hubby on the cell phone, but having a brother in law who works for a cell phone company, it's a wonder any of our calls get thru at all, so i just leave a message and leave it at that
there is a eerie sense of negativity on the boards of late, just chalk it up to that, and the fact that you have been sick and have dealt with tremendous pressure over the last two weeks, and just give it time
I guess what I am really fearing is that he is not really working and doing Xmas shopping, but absconded with OW somewhere (well, not somewhere: in his office). In the past, whenever he has gotten irritable and short-tempered with me it has been related to a resurgence of OW's influence.
"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little"
Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"
Actually, the good thing is that now I am so furious that I am no longer down! Maybe my funk needed a strong emotion, even a negative one, to melt. So that is a positive coming out of a negative...
I am pounding the keyboard as one possessed... but it actually keeps me from calling my H and tell him not to bother to come back, so there goes another positive.
Sorry if the brunt of it falls on you, dear...
"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little"
Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"
sweetie, all you are doing is letting runaway thinking lead your life. assumptions in it's rawest form. granted what we have all been thru will naturally lead us down that path, but it's really not fair based on what actions have been proved in the recent past
there is a sequensce of events that we all know and have experienced in our past that lead us to believe certain things, but really opt, are those things apparent at this time?
work thru this. the holiday's are hard on alot of people, but especially us, who have lived thru he//
BTW he has the cell phone off. He has been doing that from the old days, in which he had OW and me paging him so that the other would not notice... He knows I feel more comfortable when he keeps it on, and I've asked him to do it in many occassions.
"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little"
Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"
And right now I am mad at my H and very, very uninclined to DB. 
