I know, kitti, I am not making sense... The thing is rather stupid, I know but it has just made me so mad. I guess it has been cooking with the down feeling and all and now it is exploding.

It has to do with my H:

1. Not keeping his cell phone on (when I've asked him to in several occassions) when that is the only way of calling him when we are both out of the house.

2. Spending time after hours at his office when he is supposed to be shopping and coming home early.

3. Getting mad at me because I call him to warn him we are heading back home, so that D does not catch him with a car full of Xmas toys.

4. Not being available in general.

All this compounding my overall sense that something is very wrong...


"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little" Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"