Well, I tried Jackie's suggestion and he did not have any ideas. He sounded a bit upset at the question even. And he was definitely p****d at a rather innocent question about an appointment with the CPA on Wednesday.

One good thing, however. He picked up on my ambivalence about cooking for TG and offered to bring some from a local eatery. So that is taken care of. Maybe a bad move (he has always associated love with cooking for someone) but I do not feel up to working, taking care of our D and cooking. One less thing to worry about.

He left early for work this morning. Had woken up at 5:30 am and broke my water glass trying to check the time He picked up the pieces and we snuggled for a little while, then he got a page and left 'for work'.

We went last night to do the toy list for Santa and he offered to go today and do the shopping. I am taking D to ice skating class.

Is he more distant and irritable or is it a reflection of my mood?

I ramble...

Ten more days...

Decided to add my positives (maybe if I write them down I will actually feel them )

1. He called in the morning to take me to breakfast.
2. We went window shopping for Christmas
3. We watched TV together after dinner, snuggling in the sofa
4. He told me ILY when he left (did not the first time, but came back to pick something up and I was in the bathroom)
5. He is still wearing his ring, at least when we are out together.

"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little" Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"