Warrior/Eric I was asking because I got a similar sermon. I never got the ILYBNILWY- but I did get the...there is no passion- there never was. There was never an attraction. That hurt like hell. When my H said that..."yes we made love..and those times were nice"..."but I was never really attracted to you...but it wasn't hard to have sex with you because you are a pretty girl"....
my insides were ripped out. It makes me doubt everything...and that is a really tough pill to swallow. 10 years...and that is the way you really felt??? Could he have really felt that way?
I think that is why I got involved with someone else. I needed to prove my attractiveness to myself. I realize that now...I think I kind of realized it when I started up this post M relationship....but I just wouldn't really admit it to myself. I needed to feel wanted and attractive...and the guy I was seeing gave that to me..and it wasn't enough...and I had to hurt him- which I still feel terrible about.
I think I have a good understanding of myself..and why I do the things that I do...but for some reason- I need to go thru the motions before really really understanding why I do the things I do.
