I've never had depression that I know of. Not even dysthymia. I do not seem to keep the symptoms long enough to qualify Though I did come close when I was a teenager, according to my father.

I suspect it is a 'blue mood' caused by illness and stress and compounded to by anniversaries and the holidays... If so it should pass soon. I just have to hang on and be functional in the process.

My flu went away last Wednesday. It was not really flu (no headache or body aches, just cough, coryza and high fever), or it may have been a 'forma frustre' due to the vaccine. In all it lasted 4 days and I have been feeling like this since Friday. Feeling blue for 4 days does not qualify as depression in any diagnostic manual that I am aware of :0

So I will plod around and wait for this to pass... I do not have a holiday feeling at all.

I think my H is catching my mood, because he looks at me in a weird way. He has been very attuned to my body language lately.

I do not even care that H called OW again over the weekend... His behavior has been distant and just plain weird... but that could be a reflection of my mood.

The Shania Twain concert was rather disappointing. I had expected a better show. And she was hoarse.

If someone finds my rose-colored glasses, please don't step on them.

On a more optimistic note: H just called to see if I will go have breakfast with him . I did not even feel tempted to try and make time into my schedule But I think I faked interest well (acting 'as if' is becoming second nature).

Was that optimistic?

"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little" Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"