Hi X. You sound depressed. Dont be. What are you doing for YOU.
Use this time to work on YOU. Time to GAL. Time to do things you have always wanted to do but never gotten the chance.
Time to treat yourself to a new do and threads.
Time to start working out. Make some new friends. Be mysterious. Go out with some old friends. Make H wonder where this new ENGERY is coming from.
Let him come home and see you doing yoga in the living room. Sweating in all the right places. Make him want you or else someone else will.
Let go.
Find your inner strength. Convince yourself you dont NEED him but WANT him. That you will be ok either way. Watch him come running with your new found inner strength.